EVERYONE'S SWEET GIRL

I loved Black Swan, I think. It's hard to tell.

At first, I was all, DANCER IN THE DARK.

But then I loved the way it messed with me, like how I was all relieved when she was having what everyone seems to be calling lesbian hate sex with the girl from that 70s show, like awesome rebellion pleasure let go, yeah!

But then it never happened. And then she murders the girl with a mirror shard and proceeds to perform after that, omg, that was like, holy shit, but then that never happened. I mean, she stabbed herself, she was always scratching, stabbing, picking. When winona ryder stabbed her own face, that was incredible. It's been awhile since I've reacted so physically to a movie. I was curled up in a ball, rubbing my fingernails a lot. Finger/toenails I feel are a big horror thing for people. Good one, Arnovsky (sp?)

I hated how she kept seeing her own face on everyone else's, that was really lame, and I hated the mirror stuff. yawners. I loved how her arms turned to wings at the end-- bjork video! I loved how she had stabbed herself and she was going to die. I loved that. I didn't love all of the melodrama. I didn't love the histrionics. The heavy breathing soundtrack and cracking bones and toenails and bloody nails, all that, gross! Yet I loved that! I loved all the pink and white but then she was so competitive and naive, like not all artists are all dark and broody. Also, ugh, her mother throwing/not throwing the cake away, so great! Her mother was a monster, she was sort of surrounded by monters, but then she's a monster, so it looks like it's all monsters out there, kiddo. The movie made me think about this Degas exhibit I saw once that was all paintings and sculptures of horses and ballerinas and how they were both movement and muscle and animals.

this is nice:


but then bjork did this:


so i guess we all have it in us. actually, i hope we don't all have schizophrenia. it's good to be competitive. it may even be good to have wings. but schizophrenia? no thanks.